Two weeks from today marks my official due date. It’s hard to believe we could be holding our baby girl so soon! In some ways it has seemed like a long journey of anticipation, but it also feels like time has gone so quickly. We have been so overwhelmed by the generosity of so many people who have gifted us with what we need and have helped us prepare for baby girls arrival… we are so thankful for the support and love that we have received throughout this journey.
Well on another note, I am officially in “nesting” mode (although I kind of think I am a natural nester and that getting ready for our baby hasn’t proven to be much different than my everyday tendencies), as we are getting the nursery ready, working on projects. It has been fun to get the nursery ready and I hope to show you photos in the near future!:)
We are so beyond excited and I think with each day counting closer to her arrival, we become more excited. However, our excitement hasn’t come without some fears of the unknown. We are looking ahead at something we have never experienced before and in many ways cannot prepare for. There is much left to the waiting, until she arrives and for someone like myself who likes to be prepared and feel in control, this is a stretching place to be. My mind can easily fill with questions of what her birth story will look like, of how our lives will be drastically different once she is here, fear of the responsibility of parenting and caring for this little baby. Through the ups and downs of excitement and fear, I have learned so much… that there is freedom in letting go, in trusting the Lord, who has created and formed our little girl, who knows her and loves her more than we ever will. Embracing opportunity to let go, to give up my need for control, and trust is worth the fight. I still have much growth ahead of me in these areas, but I am thankful for a season that has reminded me once again that true life is not found in grasping for control, but in giving up control to the One who can be fully and completely trusted.
We can’t wait to meet you little one!:)