“If only I knew what tomorrow held…then…then I could be content with today.”  A lie that I so often believe, if I am honest with myself.  In my reflection of 2012, I realized that too much of my mental energy was spent attempting to predict what the future may hold.  Quite often, deep inside I subtly find myself thinking that the future holds the fulfillment I have not found yet today… so I attempt to wonder, plan, worry, hope, fear, prepare.  However, the reality is that 2012 was filled with changes and new experiences that I could have never foreseen (and quite honestly, if I could I may not have risked walking down that road).  This past year turned out to be nothing like what I expected, in spite of all my wondering and wanting, which is a constant reminder that my Father above knows much better than I what should be planned for tomorrow and every day after.  He reminds His children that the longings that we have will not be fulfilled in circumstances, but only in knowing and walking with Him.  As we move into 2013, I want to intentionally seek a different perspective: to rejoice in and embrace each day, from the time it arrives with the first ray of sunshine until my head hits the pillow.  God so clearly tells us, “don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.”   So why waste my time trying to prepare for what I think will fulfill me tomorrow while sacrificing today’s opportunities. The lie that “someday” will be more satisfying than “today” is so easily consuming… my lack of trust is painfully evident… I want to live in “today”… to live a life of love, to be free to love today, not someday, but in each and every moment and opportunity I am given in today…

What if we lived in today?  what opportunities might become more clear, what might we notice if our mind took a break from wondering into tomorrow or someday…

I am excited for the beginning of a new year.  My prayer is that I will trust; that I will let go of “someday” and live in today.

Happy New Year!:)